That Spark of “Yes”
You were inspired. Maybe even giddy.
You saw that class—painting florals, playful sketchbooking, expressive portraits, or learning Illustrator—and something in you lit up.
It felt like a “yes.”
A fresh start.
A creative door swinging wide open.
More than that, it felt like you were saying something important to yourself:
I matter. My creativity matters.
The Click Heard 'Round the Soul
You clicked Buy Now.
Maybe it was late at night with a flutter of excitement. Maybe you whispered, “This time will be different.”
You imagined your new sketchbook filled with color, peaceful Saturday mornings painting, the joy of finally claiming your identity as an artist.
And then...
Nothing.
When Life (and Your Inner Critic) Steps In
Maybe life got busy.
Maybe those course reminder emails went straight to spam.
Maybe you opened the first lesson and felt overwhelmed—or disconnected from the instructor’s voice.
Or maybe that familiar voice crept in:
“You’re already behind.”
“You’re not good enough to start something like this.”
So the course sat. Quiet. Waiting.
A link on your desktop. A login buried in your inbox.
Another unopened promise.
And what once felt like hope… started to feel like shame.
My Unopened Box in the Corner
Let me tell you one of mine.
I bought a watercolor course on painting vintage teacups on watercolor paper—soft, feminine, comforting. The kind of art that reminded me of my grandmother’s kitchen.
I downloaded the supply list, ordered the paper and brushes, and cleared a spot on my art table.
I told myself I’d start that weekend.
But the weekend came and went.
Then another.
The unopened box sat in the corner, and the longer it sat, the heavier it felt.
Not physically—but emotionally.
It became a symbol. Not of possibility, but of all the things I wasn’t doing.
What the Teacups Really Meant
Here’s what I’ve come to understand:
That course was never about painting teacups.
It was about hope and connection.
About that tender flickering part of me that still believed in joy and creativity.
It was a way of saying yes to myself, in a world that trains women to say yes to everyone else first.
You Are Not Alone (Or Lazy)
Every creative woman I know has a digital graveyard of good intentions.
Courses bought with the best of hopes and dreams… now quietly waiting.
Not because we’re lazy.
Not because we’re undisciplined.
But because life is full, and creativity asks something vulnerable from us.
And sometimes, we just don’t have the bandwidth.
So if you’ve got that unopened course—know this:
You are not alone.
And you are not broken.
What If It Was Never a Waste?
Let’s stop calling those courses a waste.
Let’s stop measuring our worth by how many lessons we finished.
Let’s start seeing them for what they really are:
Evidence of belief.
Of longing.
Of a quiet, persistent flame that hasn’t gone out.
The course? It’s still there.
And so is your creative spirit.
You can return to it. Or not.
You can start something new. Or not.
You’re allowed to begin again—without guilt, without apology, and definitely without a checklist.
Your Creative Life Doesn’t Need Proof
Even if all you do today is open the course and watch the intro again—
Even if you just sit at your table, sip your tea, and remember why you said yes in the first place—
That’s enough. That counts.
You are the artist you’ve been waiting for.
And your art?
It doesn’t live in the course.
It lives in you.
I feel like you are looking through the window at my own thoughts and feelings over the past several months. How did you know? I really appreciate your soulful creative writing. It really gives me new insights every time I read an entry. I save your posts in my email to refer back to later..Take care sweet Lynn …and hi to your awesome husband.
Thank you for honoring my feelings. With so much else happening, it feels better to let go of even the one thing that brings me peace. I hope to find it again.